Tuesday, August 14, 2007
it's been sometime. after so long, all the hard work, effort, and time. a b3. a pathetic b3. wads wrong with me? i dunno. i wonder, how could i even smile even i got such disgracing results? family problems, o lvl stress. all are stressing me up. im confused. i want to shout it out loud. but i dont have the energy to. home is a misery. to others, home is full of warmth, peace, tranquility. to me, home, is full of shouts, vulgarities, and stress. i hate it. it is not that i want to stay. but this is where i belong. ppl asking me, if im alright. frankly, i will say no even i will reply with a yes. i always believe home is a place for me, where my pillar of support is. but, i guess tat is wad i had always lied to myself. i hate vulgarities. i hate shouts. i hate stress. god oh lord, is this an obstacle u want me to overcome? this is wad i always believe whenever i break down.
i dun want to go around the neighbourhood, searching for someone in the midnight till 1am. someone who is dear to me. i dunno if u are a heartless freak or wad, she is your mother. is the word 'sorry' so difficult to come out from your mouth? everything started by wad u say. is it wrong to be sensitive? wad if a person is sensitive to some issues? are u going to shoot nasty comments and remarks at her? enjoying how she's suffering? u are a graduate. a grown up. an adult. why cant u at least try? do u still regard as this is ur family? do u? i really qns myself? in the midnight, searching high and low for mom together with dad. where were u? sleeping? i dunno. i came back home, u didnt seem u even cared. all u say. 'she's being very inconsiderate' are u being considerate when u say all those words? show some respect. no matter wad wrong she has made, she still your mom. u said before tat when u have the ability to buy a place, u will move out. what are u trying to imply?well, i dun blame u for wanting freedom. but somehow, u still must have the responsibility. sometimes she speak nonsensical stuffs. but is there a need for u to raise ur voice? are u tat immature and weak to lose control of ur mouth? there's a limit for everything. she stepped over yours, and u sound as if u are going to trample her to death. is tat all u want? is tat all u desire? is tat ur aim? i wonder if u ever felt love. i doubt u ever know nor u can understand tat.
i want to sleep my life through. never wake up. cos i want to live in a dream where i can feel happiness. . . . . .Labels: stopaskingquestion.
STORMcity!;
- 2:27 AM